My future’s still unwritten.
Welcome to my life. For those of you that are regulars swingin’ by this joint, you may as well pass it by because it’s more verbal diarrhea from the mouth of moi. Basically, everything I write all goes back to the same place lately. More thoughts, more questions, more probing and more deciding what I should and shouldn’t do. I need to figure out what’s best for me, short-term and long-term, and decide what’s healthiest.
One decision I have made, which ideally should come so naturally to everyone, is the choice to spend more of my efforts on friendships that have already strongly been established. There’s nothing wrong with letting new people in your life, but at least those that are already in your life are a wise investment - you’re guaranteed to get a return. We so desperately chase after love and fulfillment when, really, we get it unconditionally from so many sources from which we take for granted.
Yesterday was another lame-o day for myself, and for Susan too, so she and I went straight to the Lennox Pub after work and I downed two Stellas in about 45 minutes. I really wanted to go home after, but once I was there, I was sharply aware of the fact that I didn’t want to be alone. The timing couldn’t have been more perfect because within literally moments, Stathi called to remind me that it was “our night.” And even more perfectly was that when I greeted him in my parking lot, he emerged from his car with not only his amazing self, but knowing the day I’d had, also brought two of my favourite sandwiches from his parents’ restaurant, a delicious bottle of red wine and a little bit of BC green to chill out with. He’s wonderful!
What a more perfect example to solidify my thinking. I spend my time putting effort into something I get no return from. When really, I have amazing friends that, when I need them, they’re there for me - ten fold. I want to be the kind of friend that gives 100% back to what I get. Even Brockoli was ready to jump on a bus downtown so I didn’t have to be alone, but instead simply imparted wisdom to me. So thanks for that, Brock.
This life stuff is pretty darned hard to figure out, but I’m getting there one day at a time.
My future is still unwritten
No one else can feel it for me
Only I can let it in
No one else can speak the words on my lips
I’ll drench myself in words unspoken
Life my life with arms wide open
Today is where my story begins
Because the rest is still unwritten
You’re listening to: “Unwritten” by Natasha Bedingfield
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Friends are one of those investments that pay out when you need them most. It’s easy to forget and take for granted, but essentially, they are one of the best investments you can make in your life. Friends are the family you choose etc. etc. clichés etc.