I miss Austin.
Basically, pretty much Austin told me that my title should be just that. And so it is. It’s true though - I do miss Austin, but I also miss a lot of other people in my life. Y’all should pretty much know who you are. If you question it, then maybe I don’t miss you. Who am I kidding? I miss everyone I’m not with right now and I’m tired so I’m rambling.
I’m happy - and very proud - to present to you a post that will (hopefully) be chalked full of optimism and luscious wisdom. Some days for me are stunted, some are growing days, and some are days that I can’t wait to see the end of. Lately, most of my days have been of the latter sort, but today wasn’t really one of them. I’d say today was a neutral day.
It’s funny the changes I see in myself as I get older. Not that I am old by any means, but there’s undoubtedly a transformation that seemed to hit me when I reached my mid-20s. Most of it is self-awareness and the realizations of what is at the core of who I am. This “blossoming” has also brought to the surface my insecurities and vulnerabilities, and that’s actually a really good thing. Not only can I focus on working on these issues (yes, I said issues), but I can also let the people around me know what they are so that my insecurities aren’t played into. I would hope that my friends would tell me the same about themselves in return.
I’m not really sure where I’m going with this post. I’m happy to be me, today anyways. I know that a lot of my current circumstances and overwhelming (and seemingly intense) pressures to make decisions about my life have caused me a great deal of anxiety and downright depression lately. Thankfully it’s not an incessant, day-in/day-out feeling but it’s certainly persistent. I have to allow myself to learn that what will be, will be. There is nothing I can do to control or persuade. The cards will lay as they fall. It’s fate.
P.S. I really want to dance to this song at my wedding. I want it to be fun.
And another P.S. Emily, will you marry me?
You’re listening to: “D’yer Mak’er” by Led Zeppelin from Houses of the Holy
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..lovely post…and absolutely gorgeous picture….love you..
um i will SO marry you
in fact already done i think.
yep…we were just togeterh for a brief moment but it just happened.
our honeymoon will happen shortly.
your wife/husband?
emily.
You can be either/or, but I want to carry our first baby in my belly.
Where will we honeymoon? And can L slash D come with us?
well obv..we’re only married to be married, clearly we need our man playtoys on the side. don’t even be silly.
honeymoon equals….anywhere beautiful. so anywhere but..abbotsford.
mahaha.
ps.. you can carry first baby..as long as i can name it.
And what will you name it? I agree with anywhere but Abbotsford. I was thinking ummm…maybe the Artic Circle and the four of us can have our hot little igloo, with an ice divider wall so we can each melt our own side with our respective boytoy lovers in private.
haha oh my! isn’t this wild, because when i was thinking of potential honeymoon locations i was think antartica because we would need to keep each other.. and everyone warm. but i wasn’t sure how you’d like that.. but CLEALRLY it will work to our advantage. and ice divider wall is perfection. maybe some penguins can even join us. no? yes? i think so.
babys name is jack.
Ummm no penguins. They can hold our veils as we crawl into the igloo, but that’s basically it. This will be the sexiest honeymoon of the CENTURY! Icy blocks, hot and naked bodies (not orgy style), fur (fake of course), vodka all around. Let’s take lots of pictures.
P.S. And Brock, if you’re wondering, yes…Emily and I are chatting on MSN as we are posting back and forth. Geek force brutal.
Crap! I forgot to concur that Jack is an amazing name for a baby.
hahaha
perfection.
ill have my penguins one day…
and brock, you and a certain “beverage” may join us on our honeymoon if my other fellow joinees dont midn. it could be quite steamy slash icy though. pack your mittens, and your leopard thong.
ew.
ps. keira.. im off to bed, but ill give a formal farewell on le msn.
until the artic circle takes us away…
Keira has a RAD idea for a post for tomorrow…
hahah, I was just going to write a cute little post about how you and em SHOULD get married because you two are basically both my favorite lovers of all time. But then I saw all this back and forth talky and I found myself giggling …and peeing? No not quite, but if I weren’t so tired, maybe. Um ladies, I definately love that involved the penguins. You wouldn’t have to waste all that time with the suits, and they’d be cute to cuddle with for warmth at night (for your guests of course) since there will be plenty of warmth elsewhere….
anyways, I wish the two of you all of the happiness in the world. You can live at 6139 Buckthorn in the basement.
Hot.
xo
ash
i’m down, i guess i would have to clear it with the “drink” first.
does the igloo have an ice-slide? … just wondering.
ps. nice job cropping out my jew nose. that must have taken some serious time.
when is this new rad post coming?
hello i couldn’t sleep all night slash day cause ive been crazy thinking about it!!!
You miss me. I miss you too.