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My blog is pretty much like a record you’ve got set on repeat, isn’t it? Today I arrived back in Vancouver, which basically equates that today my “depression” (ouuu…there’s that bad word) will manifest. I’ve come to realize that I’m in a life slump and this life slump has been going on for probably about a month now. I will say it:
I am dissatisfied with my life at this point in time.
Why, you ask? I live more than a Sunday’s drive from my family, I am up to my ass in student loan debt, I don’t own a vehicle, I come home to an empty 
apartment every single fucking day and I have no prospects of entering motherhood within any realistic foreseeable time in the future. These are all some pretty basic aspects to life which strongly reflect my values.
Am I unhappy? You bet.
At least I can admit it. Sure there are things I could do to improve my situation, and it’s easy to say we’re each responsible for our own happiness. Is it true that I would be much, much happier living in, say, Parksville or Qualicum, earning half as much but having the ability to be in the places I really love whenever I want? Absolutely. But is that the best decision to make at this moment? That I’m unsure of. Yes I have a “good” job and I earn a really fantastic salary, but at what cost to me? I’m unhappy. But is it wise to leave here? Who really knows?
I’ll leave you with those thoughts for tonight, perhaps to add more tomorrow, but feel free to kick in your two cents. In fact, feel free to kick me in the ass if you think it’ll help.
Other than that, I haven’t much to look forward to really. Vale and I went to see Martin Scorsese’s new film, “The Departed,” this evening, and it was hands-down a fantastic piece of cinema. After seeing him venture into period pieces like “Gangs Of New York” and “The Aviator” over the last few years, it’s lovely to see him return to gangland flicks, a la “Goodfellas.” And I do believe it’s now safe to say that Leonardo DiCaprio is easily Scorsese’s muse. Speaking of, I think it’s unfortunate that DiCaprio has such a stigma attached to him. I think “Titanic” was terrible for his career, but “The Departed” was the first time in a long time that, after a while, you forget you’re watching Leonardo DiCaprio.
And on that note, to prevent this from becoming a movie review blog, I’ll leave it at that. Goodnight.
You’re listening to: “To All Of You” by Syd Matters
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feck.
i thought the peanut m&m’s would help the depression even a little bit.
i fail again.
i would like to eat your pie.. im impressed you went all out… i sat at home in my apt and ate frozen veggies, chicken and rice… ah… life… what a tangled web we weave…
The M&Ms were a delicious bandaid and a sweet gesture.
Welcome to the web of life, Ange-babe.
Aww hey my keira-home maker. Your dinner sounds very much delicious and impressive! I only hope that one day I will start making amazing turkey dinners (or dinners at all…)
If it counts, I vote moving to the island and getting in touch with your island roots. (running through the wet grass, snowboarding in the mountains, and sun sets at the victoria harbor) sounds like a great remedy for the city-blues.
AND if that plan can’t happen for a long while maybe you could join some sort of group of people that will give you that feeling of purpose. Maybe you could join a running group and run around the city and appreciate it’s beauty alongside lots of other people.
AND if that plan sounds completely cheesy you could just move to calgary and teach me how to bake pies and cook turkey’s.
I love you
xo
Keira… money isn’t everything… and you know it… if you know and I mean know that life for you would be more content at “home” on the Island than I think you should look into it! I love the fact that you live in the city and we can have tea and hobnobs to the glow of downtown… but I know that the Island is your home and I don’t think your heart will ever be completely content if you are not there. Besides… who wouldn’t love tean and hobnobs on the BEach in Qualicum? I can visit you there too
luv you girl! Know it! How bout we go for a walk around the sea wall when I get back to Van? It would be a good chance to chat!